Christmas Preparation

Yesterday we decided that we should get the house ready for the holiday season. Usually this entails dressing in our snow gear and boots and heading out to a tree farm. This year, since we cannot have any plant material in the house during Henry's neutropenic times, we headed to Target instead. We walked away with a 7 1/2 foot fake tree which had to be de-coned for us to use. Within a few hours we had our house looking like Christmas.

We had guests from Granya's church come in the afternoon to keep us company. In the evening Tara's sister and her family joined us for dinner and visiting. Henry enjoyed playing with his cousin Charley. It was a happy normal day.

After everyone left for the night, it was Henry's bedtime. We prepared his nutrition and read books. Perhaps because of the evening's activities or a late nap, he did not fall so quickly to sleep as previous nights. He likes company as he falls asleep now and we're happy to oblige, but this night, I fell asleep first. I awoke and he was out. I stumbled downstairs for a bit of TV before bed.

I had a hard time falling asleep when it came time for bed. The busyness and ease of the day had its repercussions in the quiet of those moments before sleep. Our situation becomes easier to ignore during a hectic day, but its weight bears down heavily in the stillness at night.

I need so
To stay in your arms, see you smile, hold you close
And It weighs on me
As heavy as stone and a bone chilling cold...
I was just wondering if you'd come along
Tell me you will
-Dave Matthews Band